Worthy

The Lord is so so good. He is constantly moving in ways that I can’t see, and can’t fully comprehend; how beautiful is that. Over the last month and a half God has been working in my heart and healing parts of me that I thought were already healed, but weren’t. He has been redeeming past hurts, and showing me my true worth and value. I’m still working on these things, it’s a process, but it’s incredible to see how God can use one month to work in me and another month to help someone else. 

In Jaco, I learned a tremendous amount of how loved I truly am by God. Of course I know He loves me, but He took me on a deeper level of this love that I hadn’t yet experienced. Multiple times I could just feel Him holding my face wanting me to know how much He loved me, or hearing Him tell me how beautiful I am and how worthy I am. I also saw redemption from being hurt in the past from guys while growing up and how I was looked at or treated in the past. The men on our team are incredible, truly. They look at each of us women on the team as Jesus would, it’s beautiful. To experience that was overwhelming. To go through that process is mentally exhausting, but ultimately worth it to know that I am worthy to be looked at the way Jesus would look at me. I learned that I am worthy of being pursued and loved for exactly who I am, because that’s what Jesus says about me. 

That’s a lot to learn in a month and a half; especially when I didn’t realize how deep the wounds went. The Lord is so gracious and kind, and He is gently leading me down this path of showing me how worthy I am. It’s been beautiful so far. 

All that to say, God is using what I have been going and growing through to help other women and men truly know their worth. With great excitement, my team is headed to Mixco, Guatemala on the 28th! We are thrilled and our hearts our open for what God has in store for us. My team, which is made up of 5 girls, and our new team leader Cami (who is absolutely incredible) will be by ourselves in Mixco. Mixco is the 3rd largest city in Guatemala, but the poverty is very very real. 

Our ministry is called Casa Guatemala! Don’t google it, I tried there’s nothing haha! It is a brand new ministry, and our organization is new to partnering with them. My team will be the second team to work with them, so we are very honored to help build up this very important ministry. We will be primarily working with women stuck in prostitution, as well as drug addicts. Heavy heavy stuff yall. My heart is already heavy thinking about what this season of time will look like for myself and my team. At the same time my heart is heavy for this next journey, my heart is also honored that I get to show these men and women who Jesus is and that their worth is in Him. How beautiful. As someone who is still fully understanding the depth of love that God has for me, and my worth in Christ, it will be amazing to be able to spread that joy and hope to others. Thank you Jesus for this opportunity; as scary and vulnerable as it will be, it will be a time of growth and redemption for myself and the people of Guatemala that God loves so much. 

While that will be our main focus of ministry, we will also be helping with the local church. We will be doing home visits, VBS and helping feed people who are homeless. As of now, we will be in this area for around 2 months, maybe less, I’m not entirely sure. After Guatemala, we will be heading to Peru!! I’m gonna steal a baby alpaca and bring it back to America…maybe no one will notice haha just kidding..kinda.

When our team found out about where we will be going and what we will be doing, we felt completely honored and humble. The leaders at aim pray about where they place us, and they place us where The Lord says we should be. Wow God. How beautiful that you take the smallest team (there’s 5 of us), an all girls team, and ones who are walking through redemption themselves on knowing their worth in Christ and deem us capable and worthy enough to do this ministry. Wow thank you. 

I would absolutely love prayers for this ministry, and the people we will encounter in Guatemala. I also would love prayers for our team. We will be all alone and we will be leaning on God and each other more than we did in Jaco. And I would love prayers just for safety over us and our travels. 

Thank you all for your love and support, I can’t wait to share with you more once I get there!